Saturday, December 01, 2007

wow. a good 2 whole months since my last post, huh?

i've been busy.

and... well, i'd luv to rant and bitch, but i won't. i can only ask that people pray for me as i go through a tough semester.



ok, so maybe i will say a just a teeny bit of something.

the thing is, i don't want to complain anymore for 3 reasons: 1. it DOES dampen your self-esteem/ 2. it drives the people that you constantly talk to into somewhat exasperated people (and you don't want that)/ 3. it gets old.

that third reason carries another truth to it. i'm honestly tired. i work so hard, to only give me disappointments. and that's frustrating to a person (yes, that's me) who wants to see good results come out of hard work.

by now, you my dear reader(s) may be rolling your eyes. but let me tell you, there is an upside to venting(as opposed to repressing your emotions) -- it is actually healthy. if you don't express your emotions out, they eat you from the inside instead. you have to have an outlet. from another standpoint, however, venting should have its ultimate purpose -- that of realizing your vulnerability and weaknesses. and mine is failure (i feel so like hermione in book3 of harry potter).

i don't want to fail.

and that's the only thin shred of logic that is making me not quit. but dear Lord, i need all the help i can get.

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