Monday, August 20, 2007

woooooooaaah...

almost an entire month has passed since my last post.

hmmm... i'm running rather low on internet fuel (translation: mahirap maka-connect) so i'll make this short. and yes, i promised pics, but even when i DO get internet, it's so freakin' slow, i can't even get to my image engine site!

anyhoo...

m back at Lancaster. today was my first day back at clinical and we were bombarded with stuff to do already. in only 1 1/2 hours, it was beginning to work its draining effect on me. the bleak gloomy rainy weather here is another factor.

but...

i think i can manage. the previous semester was a big eye-opener to the nursing experience (both in class and clinical), so i'm pretty much AWARE of what's expected of me. it is still a huge set of tasks to accomplish, but the only solution --- and to minimize the overwhelming feeling of helplessness --- is to just do the tasks one at a time.

God help me.

that was a plea for strength, and not a cry of self-pity. i've read that self-pity is an act of Satanism, and i must admit, i had my share of self-pity, even when i'm not voicing my thoughts. that's just it, i pretty much THINK about self-pity a lot... so, i want to stop that, not only because i'm a Christian, but because it is self-destructive attitude.

that said, i would like to say i like where i am now. i am grateful for the room i have, even when it's small. it looks well-organized (at least from my perspective), and my little knick-knacks and furniture positioning has made the room more personalized. so much like my ol' home in pinas, the "convenient stores" are only walking distance, and the bus route is just right along my road. there is internet (at the very least)... and i.... (gulp) like my car... because......... it takes me to where i wanna go...

well.... it's a start :)

(now if i could only get myself to stop worrying a lot...)

anyway, speaking of going, i went to mt gretna arts & craft show with my friend kat, and i was just floored with all the exhibits there. set against the backdrop of lush, green, towering trees were a multitude of merchandise that was just bursting with creativity --- from bags, paintings, to jewelry, hats, home & garden furniture & accessories ... i was just a little sad i couldn't get some of the stuff (made me want to get my own home and start decorating asap!). really, some of the stuff was just inspiring, so i ended up taking pics instead (with my friend's cam). but i did get to buy this nice, glittery, rusty-colored scarf (i wonder how i'm gonna end up wearing it).

once i can actually access my image engine site, i'd post them (um... i can see you rolling your eyes there, oh reader of mine). i'll just have to bring my laptop to school then. hmm.. given the weight of my laptop, i shall just think of it as "an opportunity to exercise". i'll be more grateful once i lose the pounds :P

i shall bid you adieu till my next post. i really must get back to my studying.

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