despite the good stuff that has come along my way this weekend (out-of-town folks, house to myself, sushi and seaweed salad, pretty gown, morgy, company of ol' and new friends, board games), i'm not FEELING right. i'm not DOING things right.
my major peeve is that my brain refuses to function as its used to. like kat said, it's like it's shut down. i'm slooooow at getting stuff right now; i'm in a rut i didn't know how i got into the first place. i don't know where i'm supposed to attribute this to. lack of stress? lack of activity? lack of (gasp) studying? late night (or early am) sleeping? maybe because i've been stuck at home with the same people most of july/aug? driving around the heat too much (it HAS been hot lately)? too much chemistry tutoring, perhaps? ALL of these? what what what?!?!
also, i broke the freakin' hose. who the heck breaks a hose? apparently, i do. while watering the plants/yard yesterday, i broke the hose-controller. i've superglued ant taped the thing last night, but as i look at the plants, they still look too dry for me. of course, i know the weather has something to do with that, but because i'm in this mood, i'm blaming myself too. it doesn't help that, on the following morning, i find out that the glue/tape didn't work. gaaaaaaaAAARRRRRR...
have much more peeves about myself right now but won't go into detail. but those things and those i've mentioned, they're annoying me. which annoys me more. i apologize. but that condition wherein a person thinks everything is related/talking-about him negatively (i forget what that is), that's me right now. it's no use trying to comfort me about it, coz i know it's ME that's the prob.
i need to get my groove back and fast. i don't know what will help though. maybe this will?
how broadway helps i have no freakin clue. but it was a little nice watching the live version of lion king.
